The more time goes by since I became a mommie, the more I notice things that signify my growning up. For instance, I used to drink, smoke and have other poor habits. I haven't had a cigarette in 2yrs/8mo. I have been drunk, at most...5 times, and that's REALLY PUSHIN' IT! (Just the thought of being hungover TERRIFIES me!)
At some point in life (circa 2004) I became extremely destructive (any prior behavior was with the intention of good times) and would drink myself so far into intoxication, it was amazing the real me ever found its way back. I didn't have a 'drinkng problem', I had a 'coping problem' and lacked any real sign of self-control. Having been through some traumatizing events in my teen years, being your typical insecure young woman, along with a 4yr emotionally abusive relationship, and losing my grandpa (my hero)...saying I had issues would be an understatement.
The best thing that EVER happened to me (aside from anything after this monumental occassion) was getting a DUI. Spending 8hrs alone in a holding cell, and going to the bathroom on camera were more than enough for me. Long story short, I met Stephen and we had AJ LOL
The whole point of this is I have given up any 'bad habits'. All the methods I used to cope with stress, sadness, anger and even happiness in some cases. As a result, I'm uptight and irritable. I'm still trying to find my outlet...until then, I'll keep suckin' it up and puttin' a smile on my face.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
BLOGCATION
It seems as though I had taken a blogcation for the last couple months...partly because I don't know what to say, and partly because I've been too busy tweeting! hahahahah It just seems so much easier for me to give little tidbits of my life throughout the day or week. I've been designating more time for AJ and less time for computer, which also plays a key role in the blogcation. And by the time I get him to bed, I'm ready to do NOTHING. Another theory I have, the simplier my life is, the happier I am.
So now that this blogging-hiatus has come to an end...its time to get it together and blog away.
A recent issue has been AJ's birthday...and it seems like this is ALWAYS going to be an issue. Unfortunately for him, he was born during the midst of summer when most people have plans on a regular basis (in my opinion he should be glad he wasn't born on Christmas like Uncle Chris and Tony). Last year, we didn't have a party because my sister was getting married and we all were extremely overwhelmed. We ended up having at least 3 birthday gatherings and AJ came to a point where he asked me when he could have another birthday cake because he had already had 3 different cakes. Although I never grew up having parties or multiple birthday celebrations, as I got older, my birthday turned into a 3-5 day long celebration. I have a celebration with my family, a celebration with one group of friends and a celebration with another group of friends...unfortunately for me, I think there is NO HOPE for either of us! We will just go on living our lives, feeling entitled to multiple birthdays.
In AJ's case, he has a large family on my side, and a large family on his dad's side...and because we don't have our own house of yet...it seems easier to have seperate birthday celebrations. (Note-To-Self: buy a house with a HUGE backyard for large parties) So this is year, it seems like everyone has something going on...and there is no way that I can even attempt to have one gathering! On top of that, certain members of his father's family have no toleration for eachother...let's just say....by the time we are done, he will be well on his way to a week-long birthday celebration.
So now that this blogging-hiatus has come to an end...its time to get it together and blog away.
A recent issue has been AJ's birthday...and it seems like this is ALWAYS going to be an issue. Unfortunately for him, he was born during the midst of summer when most people have plans on a regular basis (in my opinion he should be glad he wasn't born on Christmas like Uncle Chris and Tony). Last year, we didn't have a party because my sister was getting married and we all were extremely overwhelmed. We ended up having at least 3 birthday gatherings and AJ came to a point where he asked me when he could have another birthday cake because he had already had 3 different cakes. Although I never grew up having parties or multiple birthday celebrations, as I got older, my birthday turned into a 3-5 day long celebration. I have a celebration with my family, a celebration with one group of friends and a celebration with another group of friends...unfortunately for me, I think there is NO HOPE for either of us! We will just go on living our lives, feeling entitled to multiple birthdays.
In AJ's case, he has a large family on my side, and a large family on his dad's side...and because we don't have our own house of yet...it seems easier to have seperate birthday celebrations. (Note-To-Self: buy a house with a HUGE backyard for large parties) So this is year, it seems like everyone has something going on...and there is no way that I can even attempt to have one gathering! On top of that, certain members of his father's family have no toleration for eachother...let's just say....by the time we are done, he will be well on his way to a week-long birthday celebration.
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
